Cha Cha Sparks* on Getting Started Again

*These words are electric. They light me up.

I want to buy a new blanket for this room. A cozy comforter. Which means I need to pick out a duvet. Thousands of online options.

Oy. Can this room stand another pattern? There’s already a lot going on.-I’ll stick to black-and-white patterns in my search.

It is tempting to switch this screen to Etsy and just be like, “Okay. I’m just going to shop here for five minutes.”

But five minutes is just a taste and you don’t even realize how hungry you are, so you keep going. And then nothing gets done.

So I am not shopping yet.

But I am not expecting to get a lot done either.

Like I said, I haven’t been here in a few days. And for a few weeks before that. I haven’t written consistently since March, and I can feel it.

I’m so tempted to shop for that duvet. That’s exactly what I’m going to do as soon as I am done with these 750 words.

I am tired. But I am here. And I am so grateful that I have these words to come back to. It’s not hard to start anymore. And I f*cking love that.

This is exciting! Are you excited, Cha Cha?

She is. She’s also scared she might fail. Although she knows that if she continues to show up and try, that’s impossible.

Originally published at https://chachabeat.com on June 7, 2023.